Hey,
Trying to writing everyday is not as easy as it sounds, on top of that, getting back to writing after a huge hiatus is equally (if not more) difficult. You must have guessed it already from this lengthy absence that writing wasn't something that I had been doing, since, past few months. The leave did not stem from the fact that I did not have thoughts to pen down; on the contrary, the leave arose because I could not write. Now there were many factors contributing to my pesky issue, the most concerning one being 'Chronic Fatigue'.
What I did not realize, at this very time in the previous year, was that I was not facing just a burn out, but something even monstrous which goes by the name of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Maybe it was it, maybe my burn out culminated into it; I am not quite sure about it. But, after noticing an alarming drop in my general academic performance (after a horrendous and utterly disorganized Semester) and perpetually low energy levels, a quick Google search paired with remainder tid-bits of High School Biology helped me diagnose the issue.
I am not depressed. I certainly do not lack direction. In fact, I have so many things I want to do, circling my head all the time. Someday, I wake up feeling that Financial World is my calling, but someday, I feel I am here to make a difference. It is so confusing, especially, when you are a student who is graduating from College in the next academic year, having already taken a gap year. It is, plainly put, a whirlwind!
The key, I have discovered, is to simply keep doing things; one task at a time. I have lots of ambitions and I am surely not the kind who goes with 'or' story. Maybe I can be a Financial maverick and maybe I can change the world for good. Who knows? One thing I definitely know is that sitting here merely pondering is not going to help me achieve my ambitions. I need to take some steps, even if they are little baby steps.
And now you know how I pushed myself into writing this letter. Truth be told, I had totally forgotten about this project. It was this mindless recollection of ideas which I had conjured in the past year that brought this project to the fore. Anyway, the only take-away from this wordy saga is that one must never stop; stagnation is a person's worst enemy.
So this was today's letter, after almost eons. I might write soon, I might not; so do not keep your hopes high. I am promising you this uncertainty, not because I am afraid I might relapse, but because there are so many ideas in my head which needs urgent execution from my end. After all, stagnation is a person's worst enemy.
-The Perplexed Stormbringer
Trying to writing everyday is not as easy as it sounds, on top of that, getting back to writing after a huge hiatus is equally (if not more) difficult. You must have guessed it already from this lengthy absence that writing wasn't something that I had been doing, since, past few months. The leave did not stem from the fact that I did not have thoughts to pen down; on the contrary, the leave arose because I could not write. Now there were many factors contributing to my pesky issue, the most concerning one being 'Chronic Fatigue'.
What I did not realize, at this very time in the previous year, was that I was not facing just a burn out, but something even monstrous which goes by the name of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Maybe it was it, maybe my burn out culminated into it; I am not quite sure about it. But, after noticing an alarming drop in my general academic performance (after a horrendous and utterly disorganized Semester) and perpetually low energy levels, a quick Google search paired with remainder tid-bits of High School Biology helped me diagnose the issue.
I am not depressed. I certainly do not lack direction. In fact, I have so many things I want to do, circling my head all the time. Someday, I wake up feeling that Financial World is my calling, but someday, I feel I am here to make a difference. It is so confusing, especially, when you are a student who is graduating from College in the next academic year, having already taken a gap year. It is, plainly put, a whirlwind!
The key, I have discovered, is to simply keep doing things; one task at a time. I have lots of ambitions and I am surely not the kind who goes with 'or' story. Maybe I can be a Financial maverick and maybe I can change the world for good. Who knows? One thing I definitely know is that sitting here merely pondering is not going to help me achieve my ambitions. I need to take some steps, even if they are little baby steps.
And now you know how I pushed myself into writing this letter. Truth be told, I had totally forgotten about this project. It was this mindless recollection of ideas which I had conjured in the past year that brought this project to the fore. Anyway, the only take-away from this wordy saga is that one must never stop; stagnation is a person's worst enemy.
So this was today's letter, after almost eons. I might write soon, I might not; so do not keep your hopes high. I am promising you this uncertainty, not because I am afraid I might relapse, but because there are so many ideas in my head which needs urgent execution from my end. After all, stagnation is a person's worst enemy.
-The Perplexed Stormbringer
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